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[27 Apr 2006|03:58pm] |
ladidaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Lea's rules of the day!
1-if you dont like someone dont pretend you do!
2-eat lots of candy!
3-strangle the world!
4-throw rocks at people you hate!
5-candy candy candy!
6-listen to belle and sebastian while sitting outside
7-Put your arms up in the air, look at the sky, and yell WHAT DID I DO TO YOU! ---this is very refreshing.
8-Laugh at your neighbors
9-Make sure they hear you
and 10....Make gang signs from your car window at old men!!
this is the package to a perfect day!
USE WISELY!
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[15 Jan 2006|12:20pm] |
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at the risk of sounding like a stupid live journal kid....things are shit right now.
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[12 Jan 2006|05:51pm] |
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It's really weird to look at old pictures and re-discover the life i used to lead.
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[13 Dec 2005|06:28pm] |
i got into georgetown today :)
that is all.
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[09 Sep 2005|09:56pm] |
when someone is going through alot of shit...
people know exactly what to do to make it worse.
thanks.
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[31 Aug 2005|03:46pm] |
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it's getting worse.
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today someone asked me, "Lea, what happened to you this summer?"
and i replied with an "excuse me? what do you mean?"
and the person responded with "you seem to have lost the twinkle in your eyes."
lovely.
someone fix me.
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you said the rain's the rain.
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[28 Aug 2005|08:57pm] |
ahhh i went to the park with kevin.
it was amazing.
he's so hilarious and adorable.
the end.
i miss dave alittle.
or alot.
and i came to grounds with some things today.
didnt do much homework.SHHIIITT.
ohwell.
and of course.
no one answered my question....
i want a boy...
-who doesnt mind sitting at home with me and listening to bright eyes and jack's mannequin...and has fun doing it.
-who likes going to parks for fun with me.
-who knows i always feel like im bothering people...but i would stop saying it if he asked.
-who will just sit with me and look at the sky for no reason
-who doesnt like drama and smiles alot.
-who gives people 2nd chances just because.
-who accepts that im wrong alot.
does he exist?!!!??!? yes?!?!? because if he does.
i would do be the happiest person ever.
and nicest.and and and. yes. i would.
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[26 Aug 2005|10:05pm] |
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i used to think life could not get any worse.
now i think life could not possibly be more hilarious.
i even enjoy school now...despite the 200 pages of textbook
that i have to read this weekend, I am still enjoying it.
all my friends happen to be insanely amazing.
today at lunch my friends and I went off campus.
we decided hey let's go eat at a place that serves Grade D meat.
so we prance on over to taco bell.
We're pretty much done eating when my friend notices...
AHH there is a bug in her food. yuck.
But it was still possibly the most fun I have ever had at lunch
in my entire high school career.
There's something about being a senior that just makes me smile.
i saw 3 of my favorite people today...shauna,stef,rudy.
they make me so happy. We went to wendy's.
I think i have been ingesting too much fast food lately.
It sickens me...but it's okay because i lost 6 pounds last week...
so i need it..i guess.
i found out something crazy yesterday.
it made me soo happy though.
that seems to be my mood lately: utter happiness.
it's starting to freak me out. haha.
Everything is wonderful and the weather makes me so happy.
I think im seeing undiscovered tomorrow...i'm not sure
if that's going to go through or what. I kind of hope it does.
I haven't been to a movie in ages.
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[21 May 2005|05:24pm] |
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nostalgia.
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[30 Apr 2005|09:45pm] |
i havent updated in forever. almost 2 months.
so i really dont know if anyone will read this!!
things are so crazy lately. i have 5 ap tests coming up
and things are crazy busy!
i cant wait until college to get away from everything.
i love the idea of starting over. its so much fun.
ive done it a few times before.
i really want to meet new people.
i should have graduated early.
everyday i regret that i didnt plan to graduate this year.
there really isnt anything holding me back here and i just want to leave!
i mean of course i would miss my friends and such
dont get me wrong im not saying that i hate everyone here.
thats not it. i love some of you so much.
but i just feel like i want to get away.
i want to go to a place where no one knows each other
and everyone is there to meet new people.
and no one has judgements of who you are or who you have been.
its so hard when people expect you to be something
and you dont want to be that anymore.
my stupid hopes of going to an eastcoast school
are slowing diminishing as i find that i am just getting
more and more stupid.
but i want to go far from here.
maybe ill go back to florida.
who knows. ill probably end up at u of i.
which is unfortunate.
but hey i guess i should be grateful
some kids would kill to go to the schools
that i could get into.
its just a matter of enjoying the things you do.
and im just not enjoying any of it.
i miss what i used to have.
but at the same time i dont want any of what i do have.
would someone please tell me where the hell my life is going?
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forgive me for running off to find the one thing i have to do.
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[03 Mar 2005|07:09pm] |
well i was going to post about this on saturday when i found out he was gone.
but. i didnt. i didnt have the energy.
i was so drained from the news.
and at the same time i didnt want to believe it.
after going to the wake last night and seeing him so pale
i finally realized that it couldnt be a dream and that there was no waking up from this.
all of the wonderful things he did flashed before my eyes.
the amount of people which loved him and cared for him was incredible.
when i transferred last year--he was one out of two of the people to be nice to me and befriend me as soon as i got there. i remember his bright smile in 2nd hour spanish class saying "are you new?!"
it took months for anyone else to warm up to me. but not jaymes. thats how he was.
always the kindest and friendliest person.
the 2nd thing that popped into my head--was when we had to salsa in spanish class and he was my partner and i said "jaymes i cant dance." and he was like "its okay. ill lead!" the i stepped on his toes over and over and i was so embaressed and i can still here him saying "dont worry, im fine! youre getting better lea!" but i really wasnt. it was just him trying to make me feel better. and he never complained. the entire time we were laughing and joking despite the fact that i probably bruised his toes.
i will never forget him.
today at the funeral. the entire church was full... more than on sundays.
i dont think anyone was as loved. as wonderful. as brilliant.
as humble. as nice. as caring. or as good of a friend to every as jaymes was.
i never thought i could cry so much. but since saturday thats all i have been doing.
the funeral was the worst.
it was like it was over. and it was so "final."
now hes gone forever...
where do we go from here?
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we'll miss you.
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[05 Dec 2004|12:16am] |
i feel used.
yup.
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[01 Dec 2004|10:25pm] |
its happening.
i dont like it.
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[24 Nov 2004|11:03pm] |
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so ive been sick for like a week and a half....
bronchitis+walking pneumonia=not cool.
and i was kind of feeling better today.
but mommy still wouldnt let me go out
because she thinks im going to die or something.
i miss shauna...
and im really bored.
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[13 Nov 2004|01:22pm] |
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oh man. i almost died last night...
out of happiness....yes we know which group of very sexy people was there...
and from laughing so hard...fat ugly scenesters shouldnt try to start rivalries..
i mean...theyre just gonna get called fat.
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[10 Nov 2004|08:55pm] |
....god its exhilarating.
today was great. :)
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thanks.
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[27 Sep 2004|02:54pm] |
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this isn't really happening is it?
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[26 Sep 2004|07:58pm] |
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today was fun.
steak n shake isnt so good anymore.
ronny is hilarious.
i almost died from laughing so hard.
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[25 Sep 2004|04:43pm] |
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birthday.
last nights show was alright.
the bled was good. umm senses fail wasnt.
shauna slept over.
our weekly sleepovers continue. hah.
today...library. wendys. home. pictures. sing. cake.
now im reading tuesdays with maurie. its good.
um tons of hw. going out for dinner with parents tonight.
tomorrow...still in the process of figuring that out.
mmm oh yea. and thanks alec shauna and matt for
going last night and making me have some good birthday fun....
aka thanks for throwing smarties at me you bitches. hahha<3
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[22 Sep 2004|01:28pm] |
yea. half day. im tired. went to A CHINESE BUFFET!! HAHAHAHAH. shit man. chinese food is death. besides the fact that it was good, i felt like i really wanted to go into the bathroom and puke it all up. yea. asjdfklajdlka. lol. anyways.
school was ok...things have been sort of weird lately. i miss shauna more and more everyday. like everytime something happens i have the urge to tell her..and i cant because shes not there. and it makes me so sad. and everyone else at school is freakin lame. LAME. its like. shut up i dont want to hear you talk. except for like a few people. oh well.
i hate updating. but im bored as all hell. hmmm friday should be fun. saturday is my bday. i hope that all of you tell me how much you love me and i get a big kiss from all of you. ok well not all of you... hahhahaha.
i hate surprises so please. no one surprise me. and if you do. it better be a freakin good surprise to cover up the fact that its a surprise. lol. i dont know if that made any sense.
mmm. the end.
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[19 Sep 2004|02:58pm] |
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i feel like crap.
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[18 Sep 2004|01:08pm] |
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friday.fun.
yelling.not fun.
making an ass out of mike. fun.
seeing people stare at me.weird.
not saying anything to justin. weird.
telephone calls. embaressing.
feel better my love<3. im sorry about everything that went out last night. but atleast some of things that happened were good.
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[15 Sep 2004|04:16pm] |
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im bored...which explains why im updating...
september 25th. you should all know what that is.
oh..i also found out that i have like an F in spanish because i dont "participate" well that sucks. im doing so crappy and the year just began. what happened to getting all A's? oh well...
blah i hate when people assume things. its lame. and then i hate having to break the news to them. how am i supposed to hurt the person...blahh
ill see you on friday my love. we shall party all night like there is no saturday. then on saturday. we'll do it again. kind of like me getting in your pants.
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